The First 8 Months

My baby is 8 months old. Can you believe it?! She's crying, laughing, recognizing people, and moving a little more quickly. She still falls down, she trips up, she has to be reminded about the bad things and the good things that happen.

This new venture, this business of mine, my baby, is already 8 months old. The old adage "you can do anything for a year" is true. I know it's true. But I also know that it feels like it's been 3 years of this and it's only been 8 months. The past 2 months have been rough. They've been trying, tough & scary. I didn't know if I were going to make it through. I've learned little things, like don't book two very large photo shoots back to back. I've learned that you have to invoice people for the work completed. 

It's been a major adjustment to go from a corporate employee since 1999 to an employee of one who manages all. That regular paycheck every two weeks is a luxury, I'm realizing. Health benefits: luxury. Going home at 5pm: luxury. Mentally checking out at 3pm on a very long Tuesday: luxury. 

Most entrepreneurial articles I've read (and I've read a TON...not kidding) are realistic about what to expect when you're run your own business. I do feel, however, that they are not realistic enough. You really won't know what you're doing. It IS scary. There are weeks you feel like you might not make it through. Accounting? It does really suck. I'm good at some things, but there is no feedback from anyone when you run your own business. Am I really good at anything? How am I to know?

I appreciate all the people in my life who have helped me get this far in this short-but-oh-so-long eight months. I hope they know just how grateful I am for their ear, their support & their referrals. I appreciate my family who has listened to me whine & complain (I don't have coworkers anymore, remember? Also, my apologies for all the venting to those I've worked with over the years.) 

Here's to another 8 months! 

P.S. I have not yet met one of my goals for the first 12 months: get a beer client.